Let's try this again

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Ok, I am going to try this again. Last month I did really good posting but just could not make the one post every single day cut. This month the theme is Growing (Up). I started a change just today that I think would fall into this category. I have fallen into a slump over the last year or so. I think that staying home with my son is the best thing for him and in a lot of ways the best thing for our whole family since I do not have a lot of skills that could bring in a lot of money so we would not be bringing in enough to make it "worth it" to put LG in preschool or daycare so why stretch our family life when it does not really make sense to do so? Even though I know all of this I have been having trouble being happy with myself just staying home taking care of a toddler. I am also having trouble living away from my Mom and Sister and with my Husband on the road for work so much of the time that leaves me alone with the LG a lot. I have been letting the loneliness take over my life so I have just made the decision to take my life back and be happy. I am listening to The Art of Happiness by the Dalai Lama, which is helping me a lot and I haven't even finished the book yet. I have all of these ideas that I used to believe in but somehow have become all cluttered with life since I had my son. I can tell that because I have moved away from these ideals my whole life is suffering so I have decided to move back to it, to clean out my mind and my life, to stop and smell the roses not just because I want to teach my son that the roses smell good but because I want to slow down and smell them myself.
So hopefully I will have plenty to blog about in April since I will be regrowing bits of myself this month.