I've been Thinking of a change. I have been searching for direction in my life. It seems like ever since I gave been a stay at home Mom the main thing that I have lost is a sense of self and the direction to life that comes with it.
It seems unlikely I will find that direction by going back to work anytime soon and so it is clear that I need to find purpose on my own. Something unreliant on everyone else that motivates me to continue on and better myself. I do not want to become dull I want to be sharp and useful to the world.
Some people would say I should feel useful by Mothering my son. After all if I raise him "right" could I not produce a sharp man? Yes, but a persons self worth should not be linked to any other persons actions including their children.
My goal right now is to reclaim that direction for myself.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Posted by Rayna at 7:37 AM